I've GOT to stop crying. Ugh. Lord have mercy.
December 2010
DONE.
Cara needs to get overrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr hereeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee. Meh.
bleh
meh
bleh
meh
How could you not love Lady Gaga?!
Play
Feels like summer.
Windows are open, short sleeves and shorts on, ready to party tonight, it’s gonna be gooooooooooooood <3
did you and that alex kid brake up
No, why?
*break
did you and that alex kid brake up
No, why?
Whoooooooooop
My room is now clean, my window is now open, my clothes are all put away, and LBH likes his present. So now it’s time for me to hit the bubble bath and try not to die of heat stroke. It’s so damn hot in this house. Windows open AND all the fans are on. I must be dying. But it feels sooooo good outside. :)
New neighbors
Hahahaha, they’re going to hate us when we have shit tons of cars lined up and down the street tonight for the party. Welcome to the neighborhood!
It's not even 1:30
Oh lord, I thought it was like 4, booooooooooooooooooy. Someone hit me up. Skype, text, call. I don’t careeee.
Skype: sarah.damone
BUENO
<3
I think I'm going to Applebee's for lunch, cause that sounds like a better tradition than corn beef. lol
Yummmmmy, the only thing I’ve had the past two days has been a mcflurry. I hate being sick and sad. It makes me not eat :/
“Over and over, over and over
I fall for you
Over and over, over and over
I try not to
Over and over, over and over
You make me fall for you
Over and over, over and over
You don’t even try” —Three Days Grace — Over and Over
I fall for you
Over and over, over and over
I try not to
Over and over, over and over
You make me fall for you
Over and over, over and over
You don’t even try” —Three Days Grace — Over and Over
“Girls…Smile…even if you don’t mean it, one day you will find that smile having a meaning…and he/she will be the greatest part of your life.”
—(via youhavstolenmyheart)
I think I'm going to Applebee's for lunch, cause that sounds like a better tradition than corn beef. lol
Yummmmmy, the only thing I’ve had the past two days has been a mcflurry. I hate being sick and sad. It makes me not eat :/
Ask me things, tell me something?
I wish things could go back to normal, how they were before I royally fucked everything up with everyone. I don't know what to do anymore. I hate this feeling.
It's funny how things can totally fall apart when you're gone.
Done with the hurt.
Cara’s going to be over here later. She’s going to make me smile. Can’t wait until then. Now I’m going to curl up in a ball and I don’t know what. Turn on some more Atreyu I guess. And some Five Finger Death Punch. Win.
Live. Love. Burn. Die.
“
“No one cares, no one listens,
screaming words that you fake hearin’.
No one cares, no one listens anymore
(No one listens anymore)
My eyes burn as I bury how I’m feelin’
close my eyes it’s my life that I’ve been stealing
if it’s all right, why do I feel a sense of longing
I had it all, and yet I thought that something’s missin’
something’s missing”
“
“Stop!
My breathing in the night when you’re not there
The silence ringing through my ears
And all I want to do is hear your voice
But you’re not there
Drawn together
Painter’s brush stoke
Sleight of hand we
We won’t go up in smoke
Fates colliding
Love undying
Like the rising tide
Beating hearts grow but never die
To simplify
I’ll stand by your side
Close my eyes
Hope will never die
Go!
And take away the pain of being me
Soothe my soul, caress my heart
And end my fear, all my bad memories
Eradicated
Ring!
Like gunshots herd against the silent night
My love is louder than these words.
They’re stronger than the rest, unstoppable
Unstoppable”
“Back and forth the struggle consumes us all.
Trying to keep a level head.
In the most unsettling of times.
Today I’ll become the bull.” —Atreyu — Becoming The Bull
Trying to keep a level head.
In the most unsettling of times.
Today I’ll become the bull.” —Atreyu — Becoming The Bull
WHAT THE FUCK
Okay, I’m done. I need to get out of this house. And I don’t even have anywhere I can go. Ugh. I hate this feeling of having no one. I have no one at home. I have no one here in Indiana. And everyone in Virginia has changed and grown up and moved on. And I sure as hell don’t have anyone in this household. I need to get out, go to college, and start fresh. I’m done worrying about everyone because they obviously don’t care. Bitching is not going to solve a damn thing, she needs to learn that now. Okay yeah the past 17 years have a a huge mother fucking struggle and whoopdedoo I’m on meds now, I’m getting better. But holy fuck, she needs them too. I’m sick of this. I’ve never really wanted to get away more, and now that I do. I have no where to go, no where to run too. I want to feel loved. I want to be happy. I feel like I owe it to myself to be happy. I’m scared that I can’t find it.
“
Marching alone, like a good soldier does
I’m setting sail, with anchors holding me down
Pack up my bags, stow them away
I’m bidding farewell to all that is safe
Will I come up for air, come up for air
After awhile the current is calling me
Lulling me, waving goodbye
I’m out here alone, oh God can you save me now?
Sinking my heart turns to stone
Withering away, a shrinking violet dies
So full of life, these lights they’ll guide me out
Into the sea, I needed a drink
I never thought this would consume me whole
Will I come up for air, come up for air
After awhile the current is calling me
Lulling me, waving goodbye
I’m out here alone, oh God can you save me now?
Sinking my heart turns to stone
(I turn to stone)
Sinking my heart turns to stone
Save me, take me home
Over and over again
Save me, take me home
Wishing that this all would end
Save me, take me home
Over and over again
Save me, take me home
Wishing that this all would end
After awhile the current is calling me
Lulling me, waving goodbye
I’m out here alone, oh God can you save me now?
Sinking my heart turns to stone
After awhile the current is calling me
Lulling me, waving goodbye
I’m out here alone, oh God can you save me now?
Sinking my heart turns to stone
Sinking my heart turns to stone
Save me take me home
When I come up for air
Save me take me home
When I come up for air
Save me take me home
Over and over again
Save me take me home
Wishing that all this would end
” —Atreyu — Lead Sails (And A Paper Anchor)It's now 9:44
And my Mom is already on my ass. Like, hellllllllo bitch. I just woke up, I still feel like shit. Give me a break. I’m just sitting here thinking, you’re pissy cause you drove 10 hours yesterday so sit your ass down in bed and go to sleep. It’s not like I want you to be home anyways, go to work. Ugh. Today really is going to be a long day. I think I’ll start my day off right with a nice bubble bath. Win? I think so.
A year ago today
I was the happiest girl on the planet. What happened? What changed? Alot. A year ago today I woke up next to my best friend, my favorite person in the whole world. We laughed and smiled and spent the day getting ready to go out to dinner at Applebees. What a wonderful day. I miss it. I miss her, I miss him. Today’s going to be a long day and a long night.
If Tumblr crashes one more time...
I swear to God, my hair is going to turn even more grey than it is now.
I wish I would've lived in the 70's and 80's.
My legs are so soft :)
It's 6:21
Why I’m up? I have no clue. My head is still pounding and now my stomach feel like crap. I hate feeling bad. Once, just once, I wish all my body parts functioned normally and I didn’t have something wrong with my body, my heart, my mind, and my soul. Maybe I should like take up meditation. Who knows. But I’m really craving to go to the gym right now. Like I think that would help me clear my mind. It always used to. Well, alright. I shall attempt to sleep again and not let my head fill and suffocate with the thoughts and memories I had earlier, cause they we’re depressing me and I hated it. I hate when I can’t get my mind off something. My whole mind wraps around an idea and it won’t let go. That’s the thing, I need to let go, the ball is no longer in my court, my feelings are out in the open, but I still can’t get my mind off you. God, I sound like a fool. Now I really need to sleep this off. Goodnight again Tumblr <3
I love that moment. When you're on a long car ride, or listening to music, or reading. And you completely zone out. You forget your troubles, and everyone around you. You're focused on that one thing, and that one thing only. You're content, and everything seems peaceful.
Hey Steven
BE NICE
I want to be your one and only. I wish you felt the same.
You know the little things?
They mean the most, they always do. But guess what, they hurt the most too.
